Friday, August 25, 2006
memories of you and meOh well, the party going on fine, but im going get my lungs choked. cos my dear brother's friendsare smoking, damn you guys luh smoke outside pleaseee. :/ well, not really in a very very goood moood now. im having terrible pains now which totally sucks, i feeel like puking everything out. i sat outside of the house w my phone, waiting f your msg but you didnt msg at all, which didnt really made me think why you didnt msg cos im alrd used t it. well, j called me and tried talking t me about __ well, maybe it was my fault last time i dont know pffts, im annoyed, fustrated w myself. everything i o seeems t be wrong and never right i feel like a piece of shit. i short of cried while talking t j cos somehow i recalled the memories of __ which was really beautiful then, but not now. i dont wanna think much about it cos its just gonna make me feeel worse, but sadly i cant which is like #^$*&$@^!. Oh gosh, lams you're full of shit. j was trying t calm me down but i cant cos its really fustrating when you think back of those times and whats worst is that you're in the wrong, but j insisted that it was not my fault, well its over anw. so i shall just shutup. anw __ msged me while i was tlaking t j, the msg was really like a miracle cos i was wondering how __ was doing and __ happens t msg me. i dont know if i should feel happy or what, the feeeling totally sucks, its my brother's birthday yet im feeling like this, its all coming at the wrong time. I dont even know whether what i did was right or wrong in the past, j was really very sweeet t hear what i had t say and all. i feeel shittty f crying on my brother's birthday, damn you woman. im really annoyed w myself. anw partner's really sweeet cos she's accompanying me knowing im bored. thanks alot partner! ;]
pictures of you running through my mind.