Sunday, February 11, 2007
Tonight all i see is your face now on everyone elseAnd now i know how scared you were all by yourself.
When the phone rings do you ever hope that it's me?
Do you ever dream of a day when we will still be?
Laughing pillll went t type out what i message her in her blog and i feeeeeel so embae now . OMgzxzzzzzzzzzz laughing pillllllllllllll make ma malu only (: Everybody will just laugh at me when they seee what i message you ah . But th dream was super funnnnnny please . HAHAHAH "boyfriend" . Must be i missss you tooo much alrd , no wonder i'll dream of you :D im seeeing you on tues aye ! YAYE ! i love you manzxz . :D :D :D :D .
Laughing pillllllllllllllllllll , i wish you can just pop out in my house now luh , im feeeling super down today because of some things that has beeeen bothering me . I dont know why ohkay , i just dont know why things are turning this way . I mean like when did we tease jamie . Its more like im th one being tease by those people about me & e . And th people that keeep saying it is them . But instead i get discipled . Ohkay i agreee certain things might be my fault and stuffs , but certain stuffs i find its unfair . But nobody seees it . Getting discipled by you was painful , but people say getting discipled is because you cared . You said you love me thats why you disciple me but i just feeeel so pain whenever you disciple me cos i loook up t you th most and i respected you th most . Hearing you shout at me just now just made my heart break , i didn't expect it t turn out this way . I'm not saying that i hate t get disciple and stuff but its just that getting discipled risk me backsliding , i've already drift away from Him before and now im drifting away again . I know i got t be more firm and not let th devil turn me away from Him . I dont deny that im angry when i got discipled cos there was certain stuffs that you didn't knew . But now since its like that nevermind already , cos you might still be angry/disappointed w me and stuffs . So yeah . You might be reading this now . But just let me rant out my feeelings .
Anw , i just wna thank ernest! & maniam ,tock , cheryl , chun kit , jomain just now (:
ChunKit ! (: Hahah , i just wna say thank you t you f trying t cheeer me up by playing th guitar and singing f me (: You're forever so cheeerful manzxzzzzzz . Hahah
Everybody has beeen so caring and stuffs , thanks alot guys .
There's nothing without you.
The days once had are through.
I'm lost, broken, confused
But i won't give up on you ...