Sunday, May 20, 2007
I've got your picture in my wallet ,And your phone number to call it , and i miss you more .
Service today was just simply amazing/powerful & awesome .
Theres just too many words t describe it (: Heh .
After service went over t Parkmall QQ f dinner .
Ate & i was still in a very fustrated mood .
I never had this feeling f a very long time ,
its hell annoying . I totally hate it :/
I seriously don't know what t do anymore .
I'm tired , i feel as though im collapsing .
Yeah you ,
I don't know if you're talking about me .
But i just wanted t say i know im stubborn , but do you even know how i feel .
I bet you don't , am i right ?
I feel im like a joke t you ? or maybe everyone else .
Being laughed at .
I feel so much pain in me , i cry most of th times ( th feeling sucks ohkay) .
But did you ever know why ? I guess not .
FYI , i didn't want this t happen at all .
I really don't know whats gna happen next alrd , since you enjoy talking t her more go ahead . I'm just th secong choice t you right ?
I bet she's alrd your bestfriend .
And you've long forgotten about me alrd . D:
Whenever i try t talk t you , you seem least interested .
But when she talks t you , you get so happy & start laughing .
I guess she's th one that really makes you happy aint i right .
If you were wondering why i didn't go over yesterday , think about it i got no idea what you guys were talking about , plus you were smiling & laughing away happily . You hardly even bother about how i feeel anymore , if i were t go there i might spoil th whole atmosphere . Correct ?
But still , after all this sh*t im feeeling .
I still love you very very very very much . But i doubt you'll ever know it .
Cause you don't even seeem t bother anymore .
xoxo
Tess
Whenever i think about you ,
I've got your mixed tape in my walkman .